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October 28, 2019


I'm Sorry...






I’m sorry to hear about that




She posted about her sick aunt


Dying really


She hinted at that aspect


But wasn’t it already obvious?


‘I’m sorry to hear about that’


They said


Sad face emoji


She stared at her phone


And it’s comments


And felt suddenly and overwhelmingly,






He texted his ex




In a variation of detail


About his physiological problems


Brought about by real life obstacles


Or were they just the catalyst


For the exaggerated stress


He was enduring?



He knew


As did she


That it was long standing issues


That had brought him to this juncture


Almost to his knees


And that’s what he didn’t want


To be ground to a halt


Nervous breakdown


Or whatever the modern term was.



‘I’m sorry to hear about that’


She wrote


He went on some more


But quickly understood the futility


His pleas and requests


Fell on not deaf ears


As she had heard him just fine.



He was on his own


And had no idea


How to make any of it better


He’d never felt more alone in his life.






Not Sorry.




‘R U Ok’


No, I’m not


But what will you do about it?


What will anyone do?




‘You need to get some help


Have you seen a doctor?’




It’s the first port of call


Doctors come long before


Confession to a friend


Pills come long before


Public admittance


Battles are fought


Long before fragments of defeat


Are admitted.




‘I’m sorry about that’


Makes them feel better


Do they really care?


What can they do anyway?


Sometimes, plenty


Simple practical steps


Take part of the life load off


Offer to pick up a chore


Insist on a personal visit




If only a small amount


Rather than buzzwords


Spewed out like an auto-correct response.




‘I’m sorry to hear about that


Now, where was I?’







© ajl 2019



This is the last in this series. This poem and 9 others are available as a pdf right here for download, called All Empires Crumble. All are from 2019.



art: exsomnis by m_tau


Thank you to M. Tau for permission to use these specific visuals in this series. 

See her profile at DeviantArt